Between the Darkness and the Light

Stupid thing is being annoying tonight and won't poast anything.... just what i need.. more problems in my life :S

Haha! look at that... i think i am finanly understand this stupid html thing..... sort of at least. Least i can change the color now... don't know if i like it... but thoes were the only ones i could change cuz i still don't understand the crypticness of this stupid thing. :S Must get one of my html smart freinds to come and help me soon.

Hmmm....where to start. How annoying it is to have a thousand thoughts rushing through my head, and only be able to sit and stare at this blank screen. The endless, shining white that is illuminating the living room as i sit amongst the shadows and the stillness. I suppose i should go off to bed, not that i sleep anyways ;), but everyone else went to bed early and it feels odd to be the only one up... even if it isn't late. mmm.. maybe not odd.... perhaps.... exhilerating. I can never seem to think clearly in front of a computer screen( maybe it's all the harmful radiation that they emit... or do they even do that? hehe... maybe it's my faery blood. *sigh* if only... ). I think i work better with pen and paper.... maybe i'll go write elsewhere. *sigh* This never really does work and it's rather annoying(just like the html formatting that i still don't understand :S ).

How is it that i can feel so lost... i really don't know why i feel like this, it's not that i don't have millions of friends.... not that i'm close to any of them anymore... *sigh* It's like there is this hole inside me and it doesn't matter what i do, it will always be there... and it's eating me up.